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fuzzy feelings of joy

well i've been and back to melbourne and enjoyed myself tremendously. there were some points where i was getting really pissed off at the group i went with because they were being negative and complaining alot

but our last night in melbourne was topped off pretty well. i got a call from one of my tita's in melbourne saying that she had some family friends kids in her place and that since i'm in melbourne he'd like to meet me because he was studying law too and that we'd be able to have a chat.

at first i was like, this is my holiday too, i don't want to respond to some obligation to meet up with a person i don't even know and maybe won't like to be around. anyway my friends agreed to help me with this obligation and decided to go clubbing in the crown casino at Club Odeon. apparently it was supposed to be good when i was told.

anyway, i get a call from the guy and he seemed all right on the phone. he tells me that he and his friends want to go out and that it would be cool if we could go out with them. i said that we'd be in the crown casino and that it should be fun coz it's our last night there. anyway we agree on a time and place to meet. he specifically told me to look for 2 huge guys and small filipino guy which was him. i immediately placed into my mind a picture of 2 large hefers and a midget but i was pleasantly surprised when i did meet them...

they were hot! when i met them, they shook my hand which was a bit surprising but still friendly. then i went to my friends and the first i said to them was "Oh my god, they are so hot!" the two guys were really tall and mystiso (spelling) and the filo guy was hot. he was my little crush for the night.

anyways so we go through the casino on one way but they had to drop off their backpack at the cloakroom so we walked all the way around. then we went in search of the club. we then got lost and were led to a games arcade. and then they disappeared and i was like, How rude. but they were waiting near the toilets on the upper level. so then we went up the escalators to Club Odeon and it was free entry. There were two clubs there, the Mercury nightclub which one guy went inside last night and had a good time but you had to pay $15 and the filo guy was like, "no way man, i don't have any money" and i said, 'dude's lets go into club odeon coz it's free and it has good music'. anyway we walked in and it was a little bit empty but people were still dancing.

the music was pretty good though. it was awesome music actually. my friends and i all got corona's and i offered to shout them a drink but they said no. anyway 'my humps' came on and that's our song so we got amanda to come down and dance with us. and then they followed and started dancing and oh my god they were so good. when i say 'good' i mean 'awesome' - i stood there gobbsmacked and so impressed. they danced like Usher dances. very smooth. anyway it turns out they are star dancers in darwin and some clubs in manila so that all makes sense. i told them they were awesome and they said that one guy was the best dancer and that he had taught them and i was like, cool, that's good. so anyways i think me and filo guy were tuning into each others frequencies that night but i was too chicken to move closer. firstly because i have no rhythm and had been drinking. he told me that i was drunk and i told him i wasn't drunk. i got a bit offended by that because i wasn't drunk then. i was tipsy before but not at that time.

anyways then more dancing, all these people started coming in because of them and the girls started rubbing themselves up these guys but they eventually came back to join us which was very nice of them.

I kept thinking to myself, i should have met up with them earlier in the daytime because then i would've been able to have a chat because that's what i like to do and get to know people by chatting to them and asking about where they're from, and what they do and find some common ground.

i told them that if they ever get to brisbane, me and my friends can show them around. but i reckon if they do decide to come down, they'd probably just join up with the other family of my famiy friends and be shown around then. or if not, i'll introduce them to a group that does the same type of dancing as they do and i'll get my filo friends and work mates to help me show them around should this situation ever arise but i really don't think it will.

so anyways did i mention i liked the filo guy. i seriously couldn't go to sleep after that. i was attracted to him and even now back here, i'm still feeling giddy. but then i saw the guy at work and i was like, oh no, here we go again. damn stupid mixed emotions. anyway i don't think i'll see filo guy again... his name is Nestor.. there, i said it. maybe one day i'll meet him again and hopefully he'll be single too and we can have a chat. but he lives in darwin and i live in brisbane and there aint no way that's going to change. when i first saw him, i immediately forgot the fact that he was shorter than the other guys and HEIGHT is a big issue with me, they always need to be taller or else there's no point - the kids will be short and i don't want that. so yeah i didn't see the height, i just liked what i saw. and that's saying something.

i need to get over this and move on. i was thinking maybe when he were sitting outside the club whilst they were eating, i could go over and ask them questions about their dancing and what they like and etc. but then again they didn't ask me anything so i shouldn't be the one to instigate. if they were brought up filo, they'll make the moves.

they did on the dance floor but outside of the dancefloor, who knows, they may be dull. i think they don't have the same intellectual level as me though which is damn shame. but not to say that i am smarter than they are, i just think i think very mature and responsibly and goal driven for my age. and i want to be with a guy who has a goal like me but is also sociable and a brain and good looking with a nice smile and taller than me. i guess that will do.

anyways since it's holidays, i think i'm coming to the stage where i want to sort of be with someone and have intimacy again. to have someone to cuddle. i need more cuddling i think. from guys. [note: if my sister is reading this, i don't want a cuddle from you, you can give me a hug and that's it]

i love the concept of the blog. i can vent out all that i'm thinking and then afterwards, forget about it because i've got a clean slate and can start over again and then maybe read what i wrote again at a later time

posted by MissDixie @ 6:47 pm